Ouchgiving.

I’m one of those Americans that celebrates on Thanksgiving. There’s no hate involved, I chose to revolve the holiday around being actually thankful for the things I have in life and for sharing the gratitude of being a family. I didn’t want my kids having the typical misrepresentations of history taught in schools being their only education on the holiday, so I preferred to take it and adapt it as my own. That said; I’m starving 😆 House smells like my perfectly spiced turkey and dressing so I’m being slowly tortured here! I made two pumpkin pies last night, foresaw the prep of the turkey/dressing early today and now I’m absolutely wiped.

I’m thankful for a lot this year. Came in very badly… however the end 🖤… but for once, things are going my way and I’m consistently happy. I feel like I’m sorta on this journey of re-discovery now that there aren’t any kids in the house. There are truly times I don’t know what to do with myself, only to realize I don’t HAVE TO do ANYTHING. Bit jarring, really. Of course, I miss them more than anything I’ve ever missed but I’m learning to accept and live with that.

I hurt. It’s been bad last few weeks with things getting increasingly worse. I feel like I do have another bout of mono still (that’ll take awhile to recover from, if that’s what it is) but I’m getting this chest malady now too. Hoping it’s not that lung virus people are getting from vaping concentrate because that’s my only way to help me manage pain at the moment. My chest hurts but not just in the front, I feel it on my back too and my spine is just, my typical crippled spine… I’ll be around more once I am feeling better, I don’t push myself, for any reason, anymore.